Nolan here again. Up till 3 am conversing and mulling over things with the Father. Here are my thoughts for tonight and a good feel on where things are with Aimee, thrown in with a little Nolan flavor. Hope you enjoy, and remember, Jesus stirred things up and offended people way before I ever did. ;-) Love you all...
It amazes me that there is a switch inside of us that can only be turned on during the toughest of trials. There are things to discover and doors to unlock that cannot be unlock without the investment of a trial. The bigger the door, the greater the incite, the bigger the treasure, the bigger the trial. It seems like the biggest doors are the ones lowest to the ground. The greatest incites and the most well hidden. The biggest treasures are at the greatest depths of the deepest oceans. The biggest trials are set aside for the greatest of men.
Despite what you have understood or been told, God wants you to be great, He has a Glory that He wants you to enjoy with Him. John 17:22-'The glory which you have given me I have given to them, that they may be one even as we are one.' God has given us a Glory to embellish in for the purpose of becoming more at one with each other and Him.
So we understand that trials and glory are events and pieces of His Kingdom that He has for us here on Earth.
So I am going through a trail with my wife. She has cancer and I have just had a knee surgery. We are in a desperate situation, which is perfect. I've always thought the perfect places for rain storms are the deserts of thirsty people. So I believe God is pouring out on us right now. These trials are being used by Him and now have a Kingdom purpose. Satan fired an arrow and now it is backfiring because 20 are being fired back, Ha!
So here is what he's pouring out currently. His Glory is something that was poured out on the Son and then poured out on Us for the purpose of bringing unity, oneness. Closer to each other and Him at the same time. Equal and the same. We can't have one without the other.
There is also a nature of Himself He is revealing of His unique originality. The way He is, His plans, His nature, His characteristics, His Church, His people... it's all an original idea that has never changed.
This will all come together eventually, stay with it.
As my wife battles cancer I am reading a ton. I'm becoming a full time student of Large BCell Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. I could tell you all about it. Where it comes from, what they think causes it, what the common treatments are, how it works, symptoms, the number of people diagnosed every year with it. I'm officially schooled on the cancer.
What I'm also discovering is that, this sucks, but even Cancer falls into the system. The diagnosing of it and the treatment of it is a business. (Lots of controversy surrounding this topic so forgive me, or forgive yourself if you disagree lol ;])
Pharmaceutical companies, Doctors, Hospitals, Nurses, Scientists, all make more money as long as cancer exists. We get cancer, the system makes Millions... Billions... Maybe Trillions worldwide.
Here is what we also know. If we have treatments that are Organic, Vitamin based, Herbal based, this system loses a lot of money!! There is no money for anyone in the Organic, Vitamin, Naturalpathic, herbal healing methods. It is so cheep to get a vitamin, grow an herb, or drink a tea. It cost lots of money for a pil or a shot.
What I am finding also is that these natural methods are often demonized.
Aimee is currently on 7 medicines. Compazine, Klor Con, Vicodin, clarithromycin, Fluconazole, Adivan, and Zofran. These medicines help battle the side effects of Chemotherapy. Other drugs help battle the side effects of the drugs that fight the side effects of the Chemo. This can go on and on and go pretty deep. What she is battling is Nausea, Loss of Appetite, Weight loss, Sleepless nights, and body pains mainly. These drugs help that, kindof. So ready for controversy? One of these 7 pills, Compazine, has these side effects:
Blurred vision; chills; constipation; dizziness; drowsiness; dry mouth; jitteriness; nasal congestion; sleeplessness.
Contact doctor right away if any of these extreme side effects occur:
Severe allergic reactions (rash; hives; itching; difficulty breathing; tightness in the chest; swelling of the mouth, face, lips, or tongue); agitation; altered mental abilities, including lack of response to your surroundings; changes in breasts; changes in menstrual period; changes in vision; difficulty swallowing; drooling; excessive sweating; fever; inability to move eyes; increased body heat; involuntary movements of tongue, face, mouth, or jaw (eg, protrusion of tongue, puffing of cheeks, puckering of mouth, chewing movements); irregular or fast heartbeat; mask-like face; muscle spasms of face, neck, or back; muscle stiffness; prolonged or painful erection; restlessness; rigid muscles; shuffling walk; sore throat; tension in legs; tremors; twitching or twisting movements; unusual eye movements; weakness of arms or legs; yellowing of the skin or eyes.
Ok here is the controversy. What one natural herb could replace most of these medicines. What natural herb can be taken that has Zero recorded deaths caused by the herb itself? What natural Herb helps fight off Nausea, Weight loss, decreased appetite, sleepless nights and body pains? You guessed it, the all so popular, often abused, Medical Marijuana. It's politically a no-no, religiously a no-no, and a money making no-no. Now I've been against it my whole life. Never tried it, only seen it one time, hated it and when people smoked it I strongly, strongly judged them. But this is shocking to me. My wife can take all these pills with side effects from here to the moon, or she can take a Medical Marijuana pill and have the one side effect of being a little floaty and getting the munchies. Ha. Please put aside prior judgements and viewpoints on this and read that again. She can take a single Medical Marijuana pill and have the side effects virtually done away with. Done. Gone. But our systems makes this a hugely ostracized option. I have made this a non-option. I have said, give her whatever Drugs she needs, she will not be using pot. Reality check... GOD MADE MARIJUANA!!! Oops.. Hmmm... Now it is smoked and abused, but it doesn't have to be.
At multiple points we have also been told by multiple nurses and doctors that it is dangerous to take vitamins or supplements while on Chemo. We've been told to be careful with the vitamins we take as they could kill Aimee. 'Vitamins can be deadly things' Reality check: In the past 23 years, 8 deaths have occurred on the speculation that the vitamins killed the patient. And all 8 of those cases cannot be proven and are based upon an educated guesses and speculation. Yet, 106,000 people died due to medicine that was correctly prescribed and correctly taken by the patient...LAST YEAR!
Would someone please slap me in the face and repeat that. Did I just miss something? SLAP! Ok nope, still there. I didn't miss anything.
Here is the problem. There is no money to be made in eating RAW veggies, fruits, juicing, smoothies, organic, herbal, hippy lifestyles. (If you think this is all a lifestyle thing and Im a long haired hippy, well, my wife and I are BIC shaving our heads on Sunday, so there goes that theory.) But that's the truth. I asked one question with a nurse about food and nutrition and the statement came back at me, 'Oh, you're one of those guys. Long haired, nutritional, hippy gurus.' I felt like responding with, 'You're damn right I'm one of those guys!"
The fact of the matter is, this isn't the doctor or nurse's fault. An average Medicinal Doctor goes through 10-12 years of schooling. In those years, our system makes the student take A COMBINED ONE SEMESTER OF NUTRITION. Again, kick me in between my legs, clear my eyes and let me read that again. Op, no change. That is outrageous, infuriating almost! But we don't hate the Doctors, we hate the Cancer. The priority is a cancer free wife and a body that won't allow it to come back, EVER!
We are dealing with the health side of this but here is what I am getting to, bringing it all back together now.
God is into simplicity. God is not into systems. God is into Organic. He is not so much into man made things (i.e.; drugs, institutions, religion...).
This is displayed not only in our Community but in the way we do Church. The idea should be that the Church gathers, we dont gather at Church. Life isn't about showing up at some service to download all you need in life and then trying to go out and live it out. Life is about constantly being under that faucet of downloads from the Father and constantly living it out. Life isn't about where one man stands on Medical Marijuana, where one woman sits on the issue of abortion, where one man stands on His eternal view of the homosexual community. God has answers for all those things, but He hates religion more than all of them combined. The Religious System excommunicates the Marijuana user. The Religious System makes abortion a salvational issue. The Religious System condemns the homosexual and expresses God's hatred for the homosexual, when God actually LOVES the homosexual, but only hates homosexuality.
Life is about unity, doing life together, being involved in a constant Kingdom download. Choosing to do life with a group of people called the church. It's not about being married in temples or Churches. It's not about your willingness and dedication to show up and listen to someone talk and worship in an expressive way with a band and preacher on a stage. It is about simple, organic, easily duplicatable ways of living a life as a Christian, or a Believer, or a Jesus Freak, whatever you want to call it. This thing they used to call 'The Way', it used to look a bit different than the way we are doing it now. In fact, it looked A LOT different. And though it may not be popular or financial acceptable for a lot of people at this point, an organic expression of this Church might be something this world needs more than anything! The side effects could all be cured with this one change.